October 29, 2003
Wow. What kind of job can you take off in the afternoon to go sledding and it to be actually productive? Oh yeah, sledding in October, still a bad thing, but a better thing than other things.
Okay, forget everything I said yesterday. It is freakin' cold. The nice light fluffy snow from yesterday has hardened into crunchy ice daggers. It is really really cold. Did I mention it is cold?
October 28, 2003
SNOW!
Well I woke up this morning to about 6 inches of snow. I couldn't believe it. Yes, you checked that date right, it is still October. Isn't that wonderful. I really like snow. Cold windy rain, no, but snow yes!
October 27, 2003
Today, when standing outside talking to my roommate, a dog wandered over. We didn't pay this dog any attention, as dogs really just wander around everywhere out here. This dog walked right up to my roommate, lifted his leg, and pee'd on her. No really. He pee'd on her leg. Hah!
Yesterday, instead of doing work, I just looked up things on the web. It was a good time. It got me very excited. Here are things I am currently looking into to do this summer:
1. Travel around Thailand with my sweet so.
2. Travel around Mexico with my sweet so.
3. Go to France and take an intensive french course.
4. Go to Mexico and take an intensive spanish course.
5. Go to Prince George and take some kinesionic classes.
6. Travel up to the way up Northern part of Canada with my so.
7. Go on a yoga retreat.
Okay, how fun would any of these be? And all these are my current options??? How did I get so lucky! I am very very excited to do any of these this summer, and eventually, all of these.
1. Travel around Thailand with my sweet so.
2. Travel around Mexico with my sweet so.
3. Go to France and take an intensive french course.
4. Go to Mexico and take an intensive spanish course.
5. Go to Prince George and take some kinesionic classes.
6. Travel up to the way up Northern part of Canada with my so.
7. Go on a yoga retreat.
Okay, how fun would any of these be? And all these are my current options??? How did I get so lucky! I am very very excited to do any of these this summer, and eventually, all of these.
October 26, 2003
Oh oh oh, I am so happy. It is Sunday and I have gained an hour in my day. That means I got up super early and got lots of stuff done.
I was just reading an article of the perpetuation of class divisions, unwittingly by the middle class activists. I think there are a lot of people who try to do good, but by taking the role of 'care-giver' are taking the voices of people who are not stupid, who have opinions and can talk for themselves. Yes, there are major obstacles for some to be able to speak for themselves, but instead of speaking for these people, we should try to remove the obstacles. Most movements are trying to accomplish this, but indeed fall into the trap of being a 'care-giver' until they feel the said people can accomplish this on their own, but it becomes unclear to them that this has happened/is going to happen/doesn't need to happen.
Working with First Nations makes me feel guilty. I feel I am in a role that I do not need to be in and imposing more colonialism on them, but they did offer me the job and I did take it. We had a meeting the other day where some staff members we very vocal about the community parents sending their children with a bag lunch to some school event. "They don't need the school to do that. They can do that. They need to take control." This was a small way to put the parents back into control for their own children's life, by making sure they had a lunch, instead of thinking the 'colonialist' school is going to provide.
I continue to think about my role here at my job, perpetuating colonialism in my own way, and hating it.
I was just reading an article of the perpetuation of class divisions, unwittingly by the middle class activists. I think there are a lot of people who try to do good, but by taking the role of 'care-giver' are taking the voices of people who are not stupid, who have opinions and can talk for themselves. Yes, there are major obstacles for some to be able to speak for themselves, but instead of speaking for these people, we should try to remove the obstacles. Most movements are trying to accomplish this, but indeed fall into the trap of being a 'care-giver' until they feel the said people can accomplish this on their own, but it becomes unclear to them that this has happened/is going to happen/doesn't need to happen.
Working with First Nations makes me feel guilty. I feel I am in a role that I do not need to be in and imposing more colonialism on them, but they did offer me the job and I did take it. We had a meeting the other day where some staff members we very vocal about the community parents sending their children with a bag lunch to some school event. "They don't need the school to do that. They can do that. They need to take control." This was a small way to put the parents back into control for their own children's life, by making sure they had a lunch, instead of thinking the 'colonialist' school is going to provide.
I continue to think about my role here at my job, perpetuating colonialism in my own way, and hating it.
October 25, 2003
October 24, 2003
Yawn. I day at work that is not really at work. Nice. Sleepy. Couldn't sleep in this morning. In fact, I woke up well before my usual alarm and just laid there. How annoying.
October 23, 2003
Oh bliss. It is just incredible how fake 3 day weekends feel. Oh yummy. Oh joy. Oh ode to a higher power. Yes, I can't believe it. I get a somewhat fake 4 day week. Really I have to go to work tomorrow. Really I do. I do have to do things, but it is not the things I normally do and it is so so good. Oh heaven.
A few years ago I briefly dated this guy. The relationship did not last but after a period of not talking to each other we ran into each other again and started talking. It turns out we are way better at being friends than we ever were at being together. He is one of the few people I can email all my left wing conspiracy theories to, who reads them, and makes comments, and we can have a conversation about it. I can also phone him whenever I want, and he will stop what he is doing, no matter what, to talk to me, even if it is only about my computer and why it won't work at the second. I just want to let you know I appreciate you.
October 21, 2003
I am so tired. I can't believe it. All the work I did on the weekend and here I am doing more at my computer and on stuff in general tonight. Oh well. It could be that I am so incredibly tired because of shits that I work 'with' or because I keep staying up stupidly late. Either way, it sucks. I need more sleep. Okay, here for 1.5 hours and then I should go home.
Oh, and btw, those who think with their hearts should have hearts to think with first. If you have done nothing but hurt in the past, you probably need outside advice.
Oh, and btw, those who think with their hearts should have hearts to think with first. If you have done nothing but hurt in the past, you probably need outside advice.
October 19, 2003
So, another evening at work you say, well, yes. Partly because I have so much work to do and partly because I like to get away from my roommate every once in a while. I mean, I like her, but working with her everyday and living with her and spending all our free time together is too much. I spend more time with her and her with I, than we do with our so's.
Oh, and I just rediscovered the Lululemon website:
http://www.lululemon.com/intro.html
This makes me very happy. I haven't really done much for exercise since my car accident, mostly because every time I do I really really hurt myself, but I think my ribs and hip are just about healed enough that I can start to strengthen them up again, so the internal soft tissue damage isn't so apparent.
Sometimes people piss me off.
Oh, and I just rediscovered the Lululemon website:
http://www.lululemon.com/intro.html
This makes me very happy. I haven't really done much for exercise since my car accident, mostly because every time I do I really really hurt myself, but I think my ribs and hip are just about healed enough that I can start to strengthen them up again, so the internal soft tissue damage isn't so apparent.
Sometimes people piss me off.
Purple Frog
Oh yeah! Did you see this purple frog and read this story? This is excellent! I can't believe how weird it looks and what kind of signifigance this has in the evolutionary branches of frogs. Okay, I am a geek in this way, what did you expect?
http://www.cbc.ca/storyview/CBC/2003/10/15/frog_india031015
http://www.cbc.ca/storyview/CBC/2003/10/15/frog_india031015
I don't think I should have slacked off for 3 weeks, I am dying now. Of course, it didn't feel like I was slacking off, I was still working hard, and staying late, but I just didn't really stay really really late and spend every waking moment at work. Now I am paying for it.
October 15, 2003
Dummy
Well well well, another day has passed and yet another no anything post. I decided I would try to read news articles and comment on them, but didn't. I decided I would make an effort to do something meaningful on this, but the effort is taken up by getting through the day.
Today, I watched a ventriloquist and his dummy talk about safety. How many people can say that? Tomorrow he is going to hypnotize a bunch of unsuspecting audience members and then they will do stupid things. Suddenly I have "it's the man they call Raveen" in my head.
Today, I watched a ventriloquist and his dummy talk about safety. How many people can say that? Tomorrow he is going to hypnotize a bunch of unsuspecting audience members and then they will do stupid things. Suddenly I have "it's the man they call Raveen" in my head.
October 14, 2003
My weekend away
Sometimes they let us out of here, not often, but sometimes we can get away. This past weekend was one of those times. They even shut everything down early so we could get away while it was still light.
I went home. I saw my mom, boyfriend, and other dog. It was good. I also bought a lot of groceries. Groceries that are inaccessible or too expensive up here.
My SO and I had a lot of talking to do this weekend. It was quite the ordeal. I still don't know how that is going to come out. I do know that I can be grumpy at times though, but so can he.
I didn't watch any TV the whole weekend I was out.
I went home. I saw my mom, boyfriend, and other dog. It was good. I also bought a lot of groceries. Groceries that are inaccessible or too expensive up here.
My SO and I had a lot of talking to do this weekend. It was quite the ordeal. I still don't know how that is going to come out. I do know that I can be grumpy at times though, but so can he.
I didn't watch any TV the whole weekend I was out.
October 08, 2003
Well, of course I am melodramatic at times. It looks like they are closing the only road out of here for the long weekend. Nice. It would be nice if I could sprout wings and fly over rivers instead of taking bridges.
I feel badly about this blog, I read so many good blogs a day I really wish I spent some time on thinking of something interesting to write.
I feel badly about this blog, I read so many good blogs a day I really wish I spent some time on thinking of something interesting to write.
October 07, 2003
My life is going to change this weekend. Please help.
On the other hand, I am in the middle of nowhere and I just ran into a guy I went to kindergarten with who remembered me. How weird is that?
On the other hand, I am in the middle of nowhere and I just ran into a guy I went to kindergarten with who remembered me. How weird is that?
October 05, 2003
I have absolutely no desire to work today, yet, here I am at work, avoiding doing work by doing absolutely anything else, including playing solitaire. I had a good talk with the old so about how we basically don't talk to anyone new anymore because we can't stand just about anyone new we meet. Are we snobs? No, we just are sick of explaining ourselves to uneducated, unfree-thinking twats. We like talking to each other though, and to friends we already have.
I walked for about 1 1/2 hours yesterday, by the beach, and it was wonderful. I am really looking forward to doing that again once I have my work done and the fog lifts. My dog can't wait either.
I walked for about 1 1/2 hours yesterday, by the beach, and it was wonderful. I am really looking forward to doing that again once I have my work done and the fog lifts. My dog can't wait either.
October 04, 2003
October 02, 2003
I can't believe how pent up I feel. I have been having crazy wild dreams and the energy in me just seems ready to explode. When I don't have an outlet, I usually work-out or run or something and that helps, but because there is no gym here and I can't run because of the car accident, I just get more pent up and more pent up. I wonder what will happen?