Last Night

I had a dream.

In the dream, I lived in a small town (which I do). And I was staying in a friend's place (which I am not). The friend went out. The girl living in the basement received a phone call and started crying. Seems friend was murdered and then the person who killed them committed suicide.

A bunch of people came to the house. I went with two of them for breakfast at another small town as the small town I live in doesn't even have a restaurant. The breakfasts were weird, with things such as fetal cow stuffed with soft cheeses.

A man came and sat too close to me. I had to leave the restaurant for a minute and I got into his truck. He started driving and them motioned for me to come and sit much too near him. I jumped. Onto ice and ran. He chased me. I was fearing a sexual assault and being murdered myself.

I woke up and went back to sleep, continuing the dream but there wasn't ice anymore, and three of us were being chased.

Stupid dream that sticks with me when I am awake.

Melatonin Rocks My World

Where have I been?

Perhaps it will become apparent with the rest of this post.

I haven't been sleeping well. It is a plague. I can't fall asleep. I wake up a million times during the night. I wake up well before the time I am required to get up by.

How long has this gone on for? Months. Months and months. I have been walking in a dread. A daily weariness that prevents me from doing anything. Functioning at work? Barely. Eating dinner? Almost not. Doing anything else? No energy. No energy to do anything. Bone weary tired and not worth dragging myself around.

For months. Since Christmas at least.

So I went to see my naturopath, who wasn't in, but his wife was. Finally the roads were good enough. She tested me out and said I needed to take 6 mg of melatonin 1 hour before bed. Melatonin? But you can't get that in Canada. Oh but you can. They have changed the restrictions again. Melatonin can come in and rock me gently to sleep.

For three days now I have slept. I fall easily to sleep. I sleep for hours. I still wake up earlier than I need to, but the sleep I have is so complete, I do not mind.

This is how much melatonin has done for me:

I am sick. I got a cold. I still feel infinitely better than I have in the last 3 months. I am plugged up, sinuses aching, nose running, chest congested, yet still, I am more rested and less weary than I have been in 3 months. Feel in better health, better spirits. Sleep is everything.

I worship melatonin. Please Canada Health and Drug, don't take it away from me.