Another

I have internet up here again. It means I have a somewhat available communication means.

I had some bad news about a friend of a friend last night. The friend is quite close to me and this news scared me quite a bit. I am scared that he will go through what I did last year when my close friend killed himself. Even though I have gone through it, I don't know how to be there for him.

Last year, when Carlo died, I felt a vaccuum where everyone seemed to be sucked out of my life. People were ready to be there for me, but were giving me space so that I could let them know what and when I needed what I needed. I couldn't even deal with that. I don't want him to have that vaccuum, and he isn't as isolated as me so I hope he won't.

I'm over the leprosy

I got flown out of my remote location on Thursday, due to contracting some nasty skin infections that had spread to under my skin and my lungs. My finger was going a bit ... off and it was spreading up my arm. I got to experience for the first time in my life what it is to have a needle inserted into your vein and left there so I could receive intravenous antibiotics. Luckily, I didn't have to stay in the hospital, I wasn't that septic. Today I am heading back out to the remoteness, with no internet, so, as always, updates will be sporadic. Suffice it to say I have met the most unpleasant person I have met in a long long time.

I had a dream with her in it the other night where she got fired and I got to charge her for mistreatment of my dog. I wish it was true, the firing and the charging.

I am also getting sued. Nice.