Broken

So, ... remember the accident I had just about a year ago exactly?  Well, it turns out that I fractured my neck in it.  I also smashed my pancreas.  Yep.  It is almost septic or ready to explode right about now.  Excuse the lack of updates lately.  I assure you, I will be fine. 

Busy as a Bee

And twice as fast. 

I have been busy learning a lot of neat things.   I have been eating a lot fruit and vegetables.  I have been doing exercises everyday.

I don't have time for much else.  That's fine with me. 

 

Started my Course

Very interesting.  Learned a lot.  Tomorrow apparently I am going to learn a lot more and be much more intense.  I can do this though!  I can.  Well, so far anyway.  I can feel things and make things happen.  Let's see what happens tomorrow though, I might have a different thing to say.

Bees, bees, and more bees

Last night my dog disturbed a bees/wasp nest.  They started swarming her, so she sat down and started biting at the ones in her fur that were biting her.  They kept swarming around her, so she would snap at those ones.  Meanwhile, I was calling her and calling her, but she wouldn't come.  Finally, overwhelmed she ran towards me and we ran into the house.  Inside, while she was crazily biting at herself I got her brush and brushed the bees out of her hair.  Then, she killed them.   She doesn't like bees much anymore.
Today, my mom has had enough of those bees.  She is going after the nest.  She wants to tear her porch down and needs my brother to help her and he is allergic to bee stings, so he can't help until the bees are gone from the back yard.  She got all dressed up and looked hillarious and started to try to kill those bees with WD-40.
Fun.

Pets and Babies

Well, in my travels through other blogs I read some of women/families who have just had babies.  It seems that as soon as they have the baby they give away their pets.  If I ever have a baby I am not giving away mine, no matter what.  Grandma may have to babysit them for a while, if it is too crazy, but not forever.  It makes me quite mad.

More Chemicals

From the June/July edition of West Coast Families:"Last summer at the University of Washington in Seattle, research found kids who ate pesticide-free food had levels of chemicals linked to neurological damage, leukemia, and other cancers--six times lower than those in conventional diets." 
Here's EWG's list of most contaminated fruit and vegetables:
Fruit:
apples
cherries
imported grapes
nectarines
peaches
 pears
raspberries
strawberries

Vegetables:
bell peppers
celery
potatoes
spinach

I'm back here

My course starts in two days.  I can't wait.  Okay, I can.  I am of mixed feelings about this course.  It is something I have wanted to do for years, but the timing seems bad.
My arms are very tanned.
I have heard, through the grapevine, that people think I am jumping into my new thing pretty quick, that I am not ready.  I have also heard that they think perhaps he isn't ready either.  Hard to get out of things.  Easy to get into things?
I went to the medical clinic today.  The doctor there told me that I needed to get a family doctor and get some tests done.  It is kind of scary when, after you tell the guy what is wrong with you, he says, "You are too young for cancer, so it is probably ..., but it isn't consistent with that."  Kind of scary.  Kind of.  In that scary kind of way.  You know, when they say cancer as the first thing out of their mouth without anything else going on. 
I've been through that scare already once, I guess I can do it again.  But only until I get a doctor, get some tests done and find out.

Chase

I told myself I wasn't going to start freaking out about jobs this time. That I would wait and find something I liked and wanted, or at least was in a location I wanted to be in so I could look for something I liked and wanted. Now here I am, frustrated because I job I didn't want closed before I could get my ass in gear to apply for it. I also know that I should just wait, and more things will come, because that is how things go. Everything related is on summer vacation. But I feel I can't wait. I need to know where and when I will be starting to get pay cheques.
Before I did this, I told myself I would even switch what I was doing, in order to eventually get what I want. Nope. I must butt my head against the wall and try and put myself through something I don't want to get the money.
I tell myself: breath, relax.
I don't listen.
I wanted to enjoy this summer, like I didn't enjoy the last one, or the one before, or the one before. I told myself I worked hard and saved and had nothing to worry about. I don't believe myself anymore but I think I should.

Happy

So I am going away for the weekend. It is going to be full of fun and new experiences. I am happy. I can't wait.
I gave up car shopping recently. I decided I can't afford a car until I know I have a job. Guess what? I don't and it doesn't look likely. No one needs any TOC's. Well, where I want to be anyway. I guess that is because other people want to live there too and they got there first. BUT that doesn't take away from my excitement and my happines that is brought about by looking forward to this weekend.
Oh, and I bought new shoes. Girly shoes. And a skirt. How long has that been? Along with my haircut yesterday and ... well ... we all know that is going to go well.
I am off to pack and plan because, oh yeah, my weekend starts tomorrow.

Chinese Medicine

Today I went to a Chinese doctor today, and got acupuncture. It was really interesting. I was totally relaxed while he was poking me. He told me to relax and I was just about sleeping. It was so nice. After the acupuncture treatment, he prepared these different herbs and such for me to make into tea and take. I was watching, fascinated, at all the different things. The colours, the smells, the textures. He told me how to make the tea. Tonight, I made the tea. Oh holy jesus, is it ever awful. I think my mouth has formed into a permanent pout of refulsion. This had better be good. I have to go back next week for more.
Is it good when your chinese medicine practitioner urges you to go to the doctor as well?

Heh heh heh

You are an SEDL--Sober Emotional Destructive Leader. This makes you a dictator. You prefer to control situations, and lack of control makes you physically sick. You feel have responsibility for everyone's welfare, and that you will be blamed when things go wrong. Things do go wrong, and you take it harder than you should.

You rely on the validation and support of others, but you have a secret distrust for people and distaste for their habits and weaknesses that make you keep your distance from them. This makes you very difficult to be with romantically. Still, a level-headed peacemaker can keep you balanced.

Despite your fierce temper and general hot-bloodedness, you have a soft spot for animals and a surprising passion for the arts. Sometimes you would almost rather live by your wits in the wilderness somewhere, if you could bring your books and your sketchbook.

You also have a strange, undeniable sexiness to you. You may go insane.

One Summer

I had a couple very good and long conversations with a really good friend of mine lately. I was reminded of one summer quite a long time ago when I didn't behave very nicely. I am embarassed by that summer to no end.
I do a lot of things in my life, some aren't very mainstream, but this summer I did the mainstream thing to do when home from University. I drank. I drank everyday. I was drunk most of the time. I wasn't very nice. I blacked out. I even pissed myself at one point. At the time I thought it was all great fun, for about 2 months. For the last two months of the summer I stayed away from those friends.
My friend reminded me of some inappropriate behaviour that I did that summer. You know, I am all for conscious decisions and choices, but not ones made when all braincells are not functioning. I apologized to him and am still embarassed. I apologize to anyone I did not treat well that summer.

Okay

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Particle Man

Particle man
Particle man
Does whatever a particle can

Canada day here rocks! Yeah baby!
I watched all manner of people walk past my parents house (the prostitutes vacated with the increase in foot traffic). Then, when the thunder storm hit, I watched them all walk back, drenched, cold, and huddled.
I also found out my parents computer does not have Word. Does not have. Can you do anything without Word? I can't. It really sucks because at 9:00 tomorrow I should be getting a resume out. Can't get it out because it isn't prepared. Can't go into the place where I temped last summer and do it because they are all off on a really long weekend. Argh. And I forget how to update my webpage, which is actually relevant to my search for a job, because it is a professional webpage with more than you would ever want to know about me and my teaching career.
Stupid Word. Apparently I talked to my brother and we can't put it back on because we don't have this other program because a porn virus ate up everything. F'ing porn.
I am stuck. I have a million things to do and I feel like I can't get any of them done. I hate not moving forward. Some tasks seem so large too. Ugh. So much to do and I feel the time pressure on me too. Things are riding on me!!!! At least, I think they are. Kind of I was told that they kind of are, so that makes me feel I ought to get my ass in gear.

Particle man

Coffee and Beer

These two things are apparently loved by all. Everywhere you go, you are offered one or the other, depending on the time of day or the situation.

I like neither.

I am constantly trying to explain why I don't want coffee or beer, because a simple 'no thank you' is not good enough. It is insulting in some ways to turn down a beer or a coffee, when at someone's house.

I just don't want it. I don't like being controlled by chemicals.